i talked to a girl i knew a long time ago, who i (fucked) and ran away with, and finally, there is closure to a situation that i've been avoiding forever. she's getting married soon, and i don't think i'm going to the wedding but at least she invited me. that was nice of her. long years of insecurity,vanished when she told me how she felt about all of it

"life is tricky. what happened? did you really do that george? god you have to stop being so paranoid about that, i'm sorry i did what i did, but it wasn't you." and she said she owed me a hug and a kiss on the forehead, like she always used to do, and it made me happy.

so now i awake happy, a surreptitious snake dancing in blades of grass, (could that be dom instead?), hang the light skinned men out by that tree over there, teach THEM a lesson, kill all the men who take from the goddesses and never give back, smile brightly and your sunshine, arms wrapped around her torso, holding her head back and not even touching her lips, wait just one second, stare deep into her eyes and then nose touches and cheeks touch and lips dance all over the place, cheeks puffed up afterwards smiling being cute catching that innocence and blending it with pleasure

(i'm at peace now, things are just beginning and i am at peace finally thank GOD, i can actually trust myself to not linger arouunnd)

ellery, my veteran friend gave me some great advice:
"that's sad... MAN UP"

and so,
in terms of the right choices in life, i will