I'm constantly frightened by my own imagination. I am mentally insane and crave attention. I talk loudly with strangers and am impartial at night - sometimes there are nightmares, but rarely, and when it happens it happens and the horrifying images unexplainable ineffable death surrounding me, a black cloud of imagination and worry, tears stream down my face my body hates me and wants out but I can't do anything, I am stuck and cannot find a way out.

God,
please lift this barrier over my head so I can see the sun again.