so i'm about to take a shower and hopefully that'll make me feel better. i'm calling up ellery around noon and forcing him to go to an open mic with me. i need all the company i can get these days. what will i think about when i'm at work today??? (i still would like to save her; in the bathroom i sort of sat there thinking about how i might be that miserly old asian man who she's been married to for seven years now and over time she's started to hate my guts and has wandered off looking for a much younger, energetic man while i'm at work, how i always come home from work smelling like paper and old staplers, how she has to take out all the paperclips in my hair and make dinner with them because really i'm not that great of a breadwinner in the first place)

pressing GUILT on someone is no way of easing the problem, but since it's been less than half an hour since i heard this news, i think it's awfully fair of me not to give a damn