i woke up in a fairly light mood - the breeze from the fan was the perfect sort of cool and the light coming in was a tranquil kind of yellowish white -


then i lost my motivation for going to work altogether. i laid in bed and just wondered. it makes me upset to think how stupid shes going to think i am all day, like im a goddamn little kid, and how i raised my tone with her to desperately let her know how i was feeling and all of a sudden CLICK

but i asked for it. i wanted to know. i always want to know the stupidest things