deal of the day:
wanting to come clean or forever letting your best friend live in bliss

outside factors:
paranoia

reason for sin:
not feeling like a human being for six months, having no actual love in my life despite the false pretense of it happening. being attracted but not attractive

what im told about myself:
IT DOESNT MATTER YOURE STILL A SCUMBAG

how i solved it:
getting second and third opinions

what i want now:
resolution

when i want it:
who knows