my grandmother passed away today.

how's that for a fucking tragic new topic?
don't feel so good. she was the one that raised me;
my head is spinny. both of my favorite grandparents are gone now. it feels much like the way i felt when grandpa died. surreal and confused and out of it. my body yearns for a smoke, i'm not going to give it one. i can't write. i ' m just going to go
i'm a lousy goddamn grandson for everything. shit, fuck, everything seems less important , i

FUCK