So once again I feel as though I need to kick someone's ass. The next time I see any one of those fuckers, I'm going to bitch them out and punch them in the nose. Then I'll be content.

I realized I have emaciated ears! I yelled at two obnoxious viragos at school today who bitched at Dasha for her walking pattern. I grabbed one of their puffy heads and laughed and was a jerk about the whole thing. Then I almost ran over some football players because they were in my way reversing, and I goddamn wish I had because one of them yelled, "nice driving, hahaha!" as if I wasn't trying to run anyone over. And really, I would have if I didn't see their coach in the rear view mirror smirking like a goddamn cocky son of a bitch who probably gave them all this long talk about being stereotypical jocks and stuff like that afterwards and probably called me a stupid chink or something along those lines. Well fuck them and their future penury.

volunteered for an hour cause that's all that i could stand. some people need to answer their phones and some people need to still live in the same place and some people need to keep their goddamn phone numbers for more than a year. go kerry.

Hi everyone. I've been writing a fucking play, and I'm getting sick of people from Illinois and Maine and Wisconsin for chrissakes e-mailing me about when I'm going to update with some emo piece of shit that I pulled out of my ass to appease whatever idiots read this thing.

The play's about working in a restaurant, and no it's not comedy. Now shutup.

Time to change everything. Groom myself excessively, train myself, lower my heart rate, musically murder my fingers, elimiate jealousy, say the wrong things to her only once so I'll never say them again, eat right, sleep tight.

We slept together last night with no sex whatsoever and for fucking chrissakes, it was amazing.

a hero is someone who does what they say they can do

i kissed her. me gusta.

she screamed. she screamed. don't cheat on me was going through my head. don't ever leave me. don't ever fall for someone else. i'll just die.

school? i realized i dont have the patience to be a photographer. i miss drama. i miss acting. i really fucking miss it. i also miss writing frequently. i miss it. i miss it.

there's nothing to say. i was a waiter sunday night. being a waiter is awful unless you need the money, but really it's still awful then. dan brown is a good suspense writer i suppose. we read the first chapter of middlesex today in ap literature. i have a C in that class maybe. maybe. maybe.

hey. hi. im in LOVE! oh poet! oh red headed scholar! girl from crayola share your dreams and entangle them with mine! oh im fastidious, but oh im fastidious but OH! share!

i will be throughly engaged in learning a new language + honing my writing skills as much as possible + working out on my unhealthy body + practicing musica + naturally being a businessman in the next 20 months. i have also decided i will not be going to nyu this year for sure as i am most in love and i am most scared of being alone in an unknown city.

i also feel i'd be disgracing new york if i went there unprepared. i feel like ive been wasting time and no more. NO MORE!

JALEPENO SPICY FUCK PHOTO PHOTO FILM BUY BUY FUCK SAVIN UP THE BANKROLL FUCK 18? HI! HEY FUCK. HEY GYM 20 MINUTE 5 MINUTE COOLDOWN IS WHAT? 4. HEY! BEEN TRYIN TO WHAT? HEY! PHOTO PHOTO PHOTO IVE BEEN READING AND READING AND LEARNING AND LEARNING AND TRYING TO MASTER GERMAN BUT IT ISNT THE SAME AS IT USED TO BE READING AND READING I NEED TO START TAKING PICTURES OR START PLAYING GUITAR OR DRUMS AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN PRACTICING DRUMS PRACTICING GUITAR NOT ENOUGH BUT I SHOULD I WILL I THINK MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE 3RD MAYBE YES OKAY I WILL. MY VOCABULARY IS SMALL AND MY LIFE IS DWINDLING AWAY IN THIS LIFE CYCLE OF SCHOOL AND COLLEGE ESSAYS AND BULLSHIT AND WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW, I WANT TO PICK UP A MONOLOGUE AND PERFECT IT AND SHOVE IT DOWN THAT DRAMA TEACHERS THROAT FOR CUTTING ME!

I need to focus my camera. Help.

the FUCKING pixies and the fucking slackers and a 65 in ap lit. ha ha HA